Trust

There is a big full tree in our neighborhood my youngest son and I studied every fall as the seasons changed.  The green leaves one by one turned red as the days began to turn cooler.  To watch the tree reach its peak fiery red color took weeks, yet each day signalled the new season was slowly but surely being ushered in day by day.

I’m currently in a new season myself except unlike the loved tree which transformed over weeks, I’m reminded of the pear tree once standing in our yard.  Once……meaning “not any more”.  Straight-line winds, a term I learned while living in Kansas, blew over our home one night sending us to seek refuge in our basement for ten whole minutes.  10 minutes.  The pear tree was standing tall in our yard one minute and literally was down the next.

Life for our family was normal one minute then transformed the next.  My husband had a job in Kansas one moment, but he and his department was outsourced the next. 

Within a week and a half our house was on the market, kids enrolled in a new school district in Texas (perfect timing, Lord?  Two weeks before school?), and a move made to stay with parents while we wait on the Lord and His direction.  The Lord moved us so swiftly we didn’t even have time to say good-bye to dear friends.

“Trust.”

Ahhh, yes Lord.  You gave me the word “Trust” at the first of this year.  I did hear you. 

And I do trust Him.  I always have.  But deep calls to deep, and there are times when the Lord calls upon a trust that must be pulled from the depths, and He wants us to walk it out.  He is not seeking head knowledge.  He wants the physical, and He wants the physical to be strong.  It is Abraham holding his son and laying him down on the altar.  It’s the priests carrying the ark stepping foot into the Jordan to cross into the Promised Land.  It is David standing up to Goliath. 

What’s going to be my story?  The question is not whether I will walk this or not……that is not a choice.  It is how I walk this, and with all my heart, I want to walk this journey well…….for God is worthy.  I trust Him.  I do. 

So I am praying…..a lot.  Meditating on His truth……a lot. Finding times to be quiet…..a lot.  Waiting…..a lot.   I feel I do not have control over anything right now…….nothing……and yet I know it’s a good place to be.  A true place to be.  My hands that held tightly to things of this earth now reach for only Him, and I am thankful for it is my Savior my Lord I want to behold. 

I trust the Lord.

“In Him we were also chosen, having been predestined according to the plan of him who works out EVERYTHING in conformity with the purpose of his will, in order that we, who were the first to hope in Christ, might be for the praise of his glory.”  Ephesians 1:11-12

“This day I call heaven and earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses.  NOW CHOOSE LIFE, so that you and your children may live and that you may love the LORD your God, listen to his voice, and hold fast to him.  For the LORD is your life….”  Deuteronomy 30:19-20

Truth 

7 thoughts on “Trust

  1. This post is beautiful. Seasons of waiting on Him are so hard. In my own experience though, I’ve learned that to take one step without His leading is worse than staying in a posture of waiting and trust. These times are when the maturity of the faith that we profess is tested. It seems that in these seasons of waiting He asks, “Do you REALLY FULLY TRUST ME?” a thousand times a day. I’d much rather wait on God’s best than settle for something less because I was discontented as He asked me to wait. He rewards those who wait in contented joy. I’ve learned that in seasons such as this, He only gives enough light for the next step. This helps deepen our dependency on His provision, goodness, and kindness. He is so pleased with how you are choosing to wait. Remember, He is unflinchingly invested in you and your future in Him. He sees every detail even when we can’t.

  2. Oh Abby, so good to read your “truths” again. How I have missed your heart and wisdom and how I have missed you in Pittsburg. Thnx for sharing your heart and your journey.

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